Mood:
Nerves. I was still nervous when I woke up, and I was also nervous about the day. I had a meeting scheduled with a Rep in the afternoon, and he’s an older gent and I had a feeling he was angry that I wasn’t purchasing more from him. It turned out to be ok, he absolutely understood. Meanwhile, I did stop and make notes about what I could do, in a gradual sense, about my medical situation.
- Work on my weight/eating habits. Working on that. Since I was really young. Doing the best I can there.
- Wear my guard. I don’t want to but I’m willing to start trying. The sooner I get used to it the sooner it’s no longer a thing.
- Find more movement like walking. It was on the list anyway.
- Add more weight oriented exercise. Such as hybrid calisthenics.
- Getting more water in. I have always struggled with this, but let me just aim for a small amount and consistently and then we’ll move the goal up.
- Getting more sleep. I could start with the goal of getting 6.5 hours, then move it up.
- Switching to an iWatch. I took advantage of the Amazon prime day.
- Checking BP more often.
Breakfast:
- What I ate: Dutch. But a small this time, instead of the normal medium.
- Hunger Before: No.
- Satisfaction After: I finished, I didn’t feel overfull.
- Dining Experience: 3.5/5. I was drinking it while going through e-mail and trying to shuffle through tasks.
- Why/Thought: Wanted to take care of myself by getting caffeine and calories in.
Lunch:
- What I ate: chicken and jo’s from the mini mart with ranch.
- Hunger Before: I think, yes. My jaw was hurting.
- Satisfaction After: Yes. Possibly more than I needed to but it seemed like close to the right amount.
- Dining Experience: 3.5/5. I was in the car, and I was screwing around with my phone. It was kind of the first time all day I had time to myself.
- Why/Thought: I was hungry. That seems reasonable.
Dinner:
- What I ate: leftover stuffed bell pepper casserole. I had a small bowl of it, and then a mug of peanut butter pretzels.
- Hunger Before: No, I had planned not to eat either.
- Satisfaction After: I didn’t need this but when I was getting it out I saw it and I contemplated how good it tasted the other night and I wanted it. Going back for the pretzels was an odd and unexpected choice. Anyways, after all that, I was full but not uncomfortable full.
- Dining Experience: 3.5/5. People were running around demanding things.
- Why/Thought: I just “want this” and I “deserve it because it’s dinner time.”
Snack:
- What I ate: 3 white chocolate chip macadamia nut cookies from Safeway
- Hunger Before: no
- Satisfaction After: yes
- Dining Experience: 4/5. I broke these up and then ate them. I was at my desk but I did try to be a little more present.
- Why/Thought: I just really wanted them. I thought they were going to bug me until I caved.
Wins:
There were a handful.
- Small dutch instead of medium!
- While I didn’t need the cookies, there were a few other items at my desk and I could have turned it into a festival of bad choices, but I didn’t.
- Following through on my thought yesterday to make a list of things I could do to feel less scared.
- Walked up the stairs each time today.
- I was getting irritated with folks at work today, and instead of just putting up with their crap, I decided to actually annoy them back. This maybe isn’t a win, but it’s at least different than laying back and taking their crap.
- We took a walk as a family today after we got home.
- Visiting the mini mart did not involve buying any candy/cookies.
- I am journalling, even without the interwebs availble.